Press Reset

My wireless router has a reset button--sometimes it works--sometimes you just have to unplug the whole thing. But it is there for those moments when things just stop working properly and don't connect quickly. A handy thing the reset button.

All day today I've been hunting for my reset button. My emotions keep crashing and my mind won't stay connected to the work that I have left to do. I am feeling what Ragey had to say about this whole graduation/degree conferral situation, but I have to get my mind reset and refocused. I tried to take a day off from the computer, but I couldn't--it kept pulling me back. Still I wasn't able to work on the diss. So I spent some time tonight realigning my gen ed syllabus with the new textbook I'll be using in the fall. I discovered that I have an extra week in my syllabus--since the class is smaller I'll need fewer days for presentations. But then suddenly I felt overwhelmed with what to do for a whole week. I'm on the brink of being overwhelmed every minute it seems. I started looking for a part-time job today (since my funding runs out in May and alas I have bills)--and I was instantly overwhelmed by that process. My mom finally talked to her realtor friend in NewSchoolCity who promptly emailed me today with a bunch of listings and alas I'm feeling overwhelmed by the enormity of moving and finding a home I can afford. And of course, whenever I think about moving, especially today, I feel overwhelmed with the unknown of how this move will impact my relationship with Dr. J. I know that everything will work out find--the dissertation, the money, the move, the relationship. But today was unfortunately a day of emotional and mental overloads.

I just need to find my reset button. Tomorrow, thank God, is a new day. And while I hate putting off for tomorrow what can be done today, I know tomorrow I will be in better spirits and everything will feel a little more manageable. In the meantime, I gotta reset and rest up for what is to come.